I'm a terrible writer.
Not really (first thought wrong), just disorganized.
I write things down that seem so good at the time; it's complete in my thoughts, it's insightful to me, and it's in general note form (well OK, that's less-than-good).
It can actually be gorgeous.
I have complete expression. I fully INTENDED to have my notes and writings for future publishing. It would've been GREAT!
Not really (first thought wrong), just disorganized.
I write things down that seem so good at the time; it's complete in my thoughts, it's insightful to me, and it's in general note form (well OK, that's less-than-good).
It can actually be gorgeous.
I have complete expression. I fully INTENDED to have my notes and writings for future publishing. It would've been GREAT!
See how that works?
IT DOESN'T. Bwahahaha!
So here's the funny: months or even years later I find that little scrap of paper or series of notes in the back of a notebook again. Excited, I re-read. Some of it's actually still good. So, I look a little deeper. I cock my head and trace through my mind the changes I've made since then; how I've evolved from that point. And then, it's over.
It's done.
The lesson is learned. I've become more clear on that score since then.
I cleaned.
Ho'oponopono.
I didn't know that's what I was doing when I crumpled up the paper and comfortably threw it away. But I was!
It used to bother me when someone near me would get upset when I did that because I was supposed to hang on to it. (according to them) and I couldn't get them to clue into the fact that it was over for me. I didn't want to hang on to it. I had other things to write. It was actually viscerally painful to even think of hanging onto it.
Since adding Ho'oponopono to my lexicon (thanks to Joe Vitale and Dr. Hew Len, I understand that MY issue, my part of that co-creation is that my writing needs to be kept for OTHERS.
OH, the hell you say!
Now, I'm not one to chase gurus or feel that it's my life calling to "fix" anyone. Sometimes other people just need a raft to hang onto and can carry them for part of their journey.
And that's ok.
But, the universe likes speed; so MY issue is that I need to get my writing published IN THAT MOMENT, for my development.
Releasing procrastination, fear of criticism, fear of failure, that kind of thing; that's my part in that co-creation. These people didn't come into my world to tell me that I had a problem with hanging onto things, but that I'm not using my skills and talents in a clear state. WOOHOO!!!
Today's action: ordered self-hypnosis mp3's from Dr. Steve Jones' site
http://betterlivingwithhypnosis.net/
for a little extra help breaking up some of that "counter-intention congestion" so I can get clear of it.
Once and for all!
(He has extended his "Holiday Special Pricing" temporarily so it was COMPLETELY worth it to get what I could to support me for a good long time!
I was so happy. It was exactly what I asked for within the week I asked for it. I love clear manifestations!)
IT DOESN'T. Bwahahaha!
So here's the funny: months or even years later I find that little scrap of paper or series of notes in the back of a notebook again. Excited, I re-read. Some of it's actually still good. So, I look a little deeper. I cock my head and trace through my mind the changes I've made since then; how I've evolved from that point. And then, it's over.
It's done.
The lesson is learned. I've become more clear on that score since then.
I cleaned.
Ho'oponopono.
I didn't know that's what I was doing when I crumpled up the paper and comfortably threw it away. But I was!
It used to bother me when someone near me would get upset when I did that because I was supposed to hang on to it. (according to them) and I couldn't get them to clue into the fact that it was over for me. I didn't want to hang on to it. I had other things to write. It was actually viscerally painful to even think of hanging onto it.
Since adding Ho'oponopono to my lexicon (thanks to Joe Vitale and Dr. Hew Len, I understand that MY issue, my part of that co-creation is that my writing needs to be kept for OTHERS.
OH, the hell you say!
Now, I'm not one to chase gurus or feel that it's my life calling to "fix" anyone. Sometimes other people just need a raft to hang onto and can carry them for part of their journey.
And that's ok.
But, the universe likes speed; so MY issue is that I need to get my writing published IN THAT MOMENT, for my development.
Releasing procrastination, fear of criticism, fear of failure, that kind of thing; that's my part in that co-creation. These people didn't come into my world to tell me that I had a problem with hanging onto things, but that I'm not using my skills and talents in a clear state. WOOHOO!!!
Today's action: ordered self-hypnosis mp3's from Dr. Steve Jones' site
http://betterlivingwithhypnosis.net/
for a little extra help breaking up some of that "counter-intention congestion" so I can get clear of it.
Once and for all!
(He has extended his "Holiday Special Pricing" temporarily so it was COMPLETELY worth it to get what I could to support me for a good long time!
I was so happy. It was exactly what I asked for within the week I asked for it. I love clear manifestations!)
He who stands on tiptoe
doesn't stand firm.
He who rushes ahead
doesn't go far.
He who tries to shine
dims his own light.
He who defines himself
can't really know who he really is.
He who has power over others
can't empower himself.
He who clings to his work
will create nothing that endures.
If you want accord with the Tao,
just do your job, then let it go.
-Tao Te Ching